dear boy gods, it's me laura
i have a date tonight.
i am terrified.
i don't want to go on this date. i don't want to tell the man with two names (as fore mentioned in apt-7 diary) that i don't want to date him.
why do i not just call him and tell him that i am not interested? perhaps it is the fear that no other guy will ever ask me out? hmmm. seeing how he is the first and only to attempt the task in the more than 6 months i've lived here and the many months before that when i was still in michigan.
boys and dates lead me to be an insecure 12 year-old in the 8th grade again.
i'm going to think and sweat at bally's. perhaps a monumental breakthrough shall occur (or i will pass out allowing me an excuse for chickening out).