pessimism at its best!
blah. im having a blah week. i should be having a supery dupery week. but im not. its spring break for me. however, for the rest of the world, it seems to be a normal ho-hum week. i dont like it. i like when everyone is playing all the time, and i get whisked away into the playing. right now im procrastinating. im supposed to be working out. however, i havent lost a pound in over a month. not only that, ive gained weight. what is my inspiration to work out? im not seeing the results. i wanted to be so trim for my cruise. i set sail in exactly one month from friday. i dont see it happening. i always try to set goals for myself, and im not used to failing.
i am also supposed to be doing my msu/elem school work. another instance where i just dont feel like it. spring break is now designated work time. yuck. id rather have fun and do nothing thanks. i told my professor i would have my paper into her by sunday. hmmm. i guess wednesday morning, 3 days past the extended due date that i swore by, is kinda late. i did get up and write for almost an hour. but, its not done. the other thing i have to do for msu, or one other thing, is a list of all the stuff i want included in my letter of recommendation. i dont know! i dont write letters of recommendation, how would i know what goes into it. its supposed to be a list of all the things ive done this year that are really great. how bout: -bitched -complained -gone to the bar -got wasted -talked about my kids like they were monsters etc. that would at least be unique.
i think im going to go sweat myself into oblivion, although im not sure why. maybe it just makes me feel good to say i tried.