rantings of a sad day
i do not feel like updating. however, im hoping it will help me feel better. ive been a bit depressed since being back at school. all i want to do is play with my friends all the time. i dont want to live in the tiny, freezing apartment, i dont want to work all the time. i just want to be happy and have fun all the time. i love teaching, and the school,and the kids, but i need a long break. two weeks did not cut it. i also need to be a more effective manager while im there. i just cant help wanting to give them all the love and attention they are missing out on at home. how can i say that reading on grade level is more important, than telling someone why you are so sad all the time? i realize that i will be getting paid, eventually, to teach them content, but its still so difficult.
im also having issues. i hate when im sad all the freakin time. it doesnt help that i feel so provoked by a lot of people. why does the provoking seem to increase so much when im already sad?
im sitting at work getting all sad. just what i need. now these people will think im a weepy baby, or they will try to figure out whats wrong with me. luckily theres only about 2 people here, and they are both very aloof people.
im sick of bitching. i realize everyone has down times, but it really doesnt make it any easier. i just need a good cry i think. next weekend im going home for sure. i need some rechargeation.